This site helps me, but I still need help
I have just realized something of incrédible: I wrote a long message explaining my problem very well. Before I begin my trainig on the dual n-back task, I don't think I would have been able to do this. The fact that I passed of doing dual 1-back poorly on doing dual 3-back well means surely something.
Thank you for all your answers, and I am going to look for a PTSD group.
Thank you for all your answers, and I am going to look for a PTSD group.
Scandrier | 3 years ago
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This site helps me, but I still need help
Hello!
For several years now, I am suffering psychologically because of a traumatizing event. Since, I feel always threatened. Because of this doubt, I cannot sleep properly, I lost my enthusiasm, I am not able to concentrate, to talk, to think. I became a zombie.
This transformation of myself shock me: I was able to do everything, now I can't do anything. The worst part is that I am not able to talk. Because of that, I saw a neuropsychologist. It has evaluated my intellectual quotient during five hours to say finally that I have problems with my short term memories compared with my long-term memory.
Because of this discovery, I began inquiring as much informations as I can on short term memory, and I realized that it was not for only some years that I had problemes with, but for a long time. Even so before I did not have problems to speak and learn, I never have stimulate my short term memory at the farthest compared with everybody around me. That's why, during all my life, I was never comfortable, as if I had the impression of being someone else. I was never me. That's why I was not ever happy and that I have never had libido (it is what an orgasm?).
Therefore, since, I try to stimulate my short term memory, but it is really hard. I try to read, to write, to speak, but I see no improvements: I am still a Zombie. I feel no ''pressures'' in my head and any sweats clear my head... I am stuck. Lately, I fell on cognitive fun and try dual n-back task and pasat. It help me improve a little bit my working memory, but I still do not feel this difficulty, furious energy, force, trouble in my brain.
I write because I am out of tool, I don't know what to do anymore. I can't endure anymore the fact that I can't do anything. I have to stimulate my working memory, but I don't know how. Is there a person here with the same problem? If only somebody could understand me, but nobody in my circle understand me and wants to help me. Can we realy stimulate our shor term memory alone?
For several years now, I am suffering psychologically because of a traumatizing event. Since, I feel always threatened. Because of this doubt, I cannot sleep properly, I lost my enthusiasm, I am not able to concentrate, to talk, to think. I became a zombie.
This transformation of myself shock me: I was able to do everything, now I can't do anything. The worst part is that I am not able to talk. Because of that, I saw a neuropsychologist. It has evaluated my intellectual quotient during five hours to say finally that I have problems with my short term memories compared with my long-term memory.
Because of this discovery, I began inquiring as much informations as I can on short term memory, and I realized that it was not for only some years that I had problemes with, but for a long time. Even so before I did not have problems to speak and learn, I never have stimulate my short term memory at the farthest compared with everybody around me. That's why, during all my life, I was never comfortable, as if I had the impression of being someone else. I was never me. That's why I was not ever happy and that I have never had libido (it is what an orgasm?).
Therefore, since, I try to stimulate my short term memory, but it is really hard. I try to read, to write, to speak, but I see no improvements: I am still a Zombie. I feel no ''pressures'' in my head and any sweats clear my head... I am stuck. Lately, I fell on cognitive fun and try dual n-back task and pasat. It help me improve a little bit my working memory, but I still do not feel this difficulty, furious energy, force, trouble in my brain.
I write because I am out of tool, I don't know what to do anymore. I can't endure anymore the fact that I can't do anything. I have to stimulate my working memory, but I don't know how. Is there a person here with the same problem? If only somebody could understand me, but nobody in my circle understand me and wants to help me. Can we realy stimulate our shor term memory alone?
Scandrier | 3 years ago
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Your descriptions give an idea of where we should look for the root of your zombie-feeling, but due to the nature of this site, I cannot give you diagnosis -- nor should you trust any diagnosis that isn't thorough, controlled, and run by trained and certified experts.
That said, since you have already seen a neuropsychologist, you might have received suggestions and/or strategies. My first thought would be to seek a second or third opinion, and note previous diagnoses so there can be some kind of comparison.
As for your working memory capacity, the fact that you are able to write here more than likely means that your working memory is alright. Compare this to HM (who passed away last week): he has almost no short term memory, and would forget your name minutes after hearing it. Interestingly, having a very short memory also means forgetting your troubles very quickly.
In any case, your condition probably needs a lot more attention and thought, than what is possible by talking online. If you are recovering from a traumatic event, you might be meeting with discussion groups regularly. This is a long process, though, so you have to be patient, and you have to be determined.
Also, if your circle doesn't understand you, you have to reach out and find other people who do, even if they are just strangers. A lot of psychological things are *impossible* to understand unless you have personally been through them. As Brett said, if you know you are experiencing traumatic stress, looking for PTSD groups is a good start.
That said, since you have already seen a neuropsychologist, you might have received suggestions and/or strategies. My first thought would be to seek a second or third opinion, and note previous diagnoses so there can be some kind of comparison.
As for your working memory capacity, the fact that you are able to write here more than likely means that your working memory is alright. Compare this to HM (who passed away last week): he has almost no short term memory, and would forget your name minutes after hearing it. Interestingly, having a very short memory also means forgetting your troubles very quickly.
In any case, your condition probably needs a lot more attention and thought, than what is possible by talking online. If you are recovering from a traumatic event, you might be meeting with discussion groups regularly. This is a long process, though, so you have to be patient, and you have to be determined.
Also, if your circle doesn't understand you, you have to reach out and find other people who do, even if they are just strangers. A lot of psychological things are *impossible* to understand unless you have personally been through them. As Brett said, if you know you are experiencing traumatic stress, looking for PTSD groups is a good start.
cognitivefun | 3 years ago
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Hello Scandrier.
For psychological trauma, if you have access to a therapist, you might consider trying EMDR (you can google it, I won't make this too elaborate) which is used when someone presents with 'PTSD'. This process is not with out controversy, but I can attest to personally having used it after it was recommended to me by a friend for whom it was also successful. It is just a cog in the wheel but, it may be a good idea to find someone who is trained in its application when making a choice about who to see.
I don't know how long it has been since the trauma but, there are things we cannot do on our own, things for which rationalization and intellectualization (common defense mechanisms of the 'smart')become a reinforcing part of the problem and against which our friends and family, no matter how loving and supportive, are powerless...
As with anything, *individual results may vary.
-Brett
For psychological trauma, if you have access to a therapist, you might consider trying EMDR (you can google it, I won't make this too elaborate) which is used when someone presents with 'PTSD'. This process is not with out controversy, but I can attest to personally having used it after it was recommended to me by a friend for whom it was also successful. It is just a cog in the wheel but, it may be a good idea to find someone who is trained in its application when making a choice about who to see.
I don't know how long it has been since the trauma but, there are things we cannot do on our own, things for which rationalization and intellectualization (common defense mechanisms of the 'smart')become a reinforcing part of the problem and against which our friends and family, no matter how loving and supportive, are powerless...
As with anything, *individual results may vary.
-Brett
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